Starting music school this week. I have already a homework assignment to analyze Beethoven's Symphony No.3. I also need to play for a piano instructor on Monday. I feel I am so behind and need to catch up. I so want to prove that I am a musician. Then I realize the anxiety is not right.
I should learn from Yoga that everything in life is like a breathing process. When I study music, music becomes the air, and I only need to take deep breath, let music air fill up my lung. When I breath out, it is the creative energy going through me and back into the world. There should be no other purpose than simply breathing in and out. Forget the self, the grade, the approval from expert... Listen not to self evaluation. There will be time for all of those. When learn music, breath in and out, and enjoy this gift from life.
Life is also like breathing. There is no goal, but only the process. Enjoy deeply while we can.