What does it mean to be a Chinese? What do we have to give up? Why am I writing about Fresno girls when there are so many stories of Chinese in America? Too close to me to write about? Too disheartening? Too sad.... and nobody knows how to tell their stories, and nobody cares to know their stories, because they are truly nobodies once they are Chinese in America.

I am getting discouraged. Why do I always see the sadness?? And why do I feel so much that I want to weep?

-- email excerpt to JA