i am just very very very tired..... i haven't been sleeping much lately. 3-4 hours a day... but i feel i am in a state of mild enlightenment today. maybe i am just dreaming. but everything seems so wonderful and enjoyable and peaceful, even though i can't type without shaking (too tired). i sat under the sun and had a sandwich earlier this afternoon, and read a few paragraph of henry miller--yes, i am still working on it. i need rest, rest, rest.