Read some old diary from Fresno days. Very sentimental--to realize how much I have grown, and how much I have stayed unchanged. It's almost amzing. One day I should type everything in a computer and review my growing path. It has not been easy, but very heavy and full of pain and thoughts and hopes.

So who is RH and what is he doing in my lkife? Is he just here so I will think, and inspect myself, and reach in and deep to understand? And to remind me of human suffering so I shall find a way to reconcile?

Today I thought a lot about human suffering and ignorance and how, even enlightened, one still feels pain when turning his/her eyes to humanity. I think the key is independent thinking, which eventually will lead to everyone coming to agreement so there will only be maximum (optimal) construction. Social progress needs people to think constructively and act agreeably, but only when everyone can think independently, their agreement is real. The purpose of education is not all about gaining knowledge. It is about training people to think and to enlighten and to understand. Maybe in the end, love is the answer.