5/12/2002 Zhengzhou 10:20 pm

The last 11 hours has been difficult for me to write about in English. The only thing I can think about to write down here, and that is relevant to my recent life (with S) is: this trip is really a test, a measure, to measure the real distance between us. And the last half day is too thick, too heavy, with all history, all things Chinese, all things family, childhood, relationship, root, future, culture, compassion, human suffering, endurance, ignorance, ... all things about me.