I have signed up for an online "remainder service", and they send e-mail remainders to tell people to do some simple things and not ask questions. I have found out that the ultimate goal is not go get those things done (wash dishes, put away laundry, make bed, empty trash, etc.), but in doing simple things I will actually feel better and then I get more things done and I feel even better. So it is only just recently that I realize that an essential part of being happy is to do things, is in the action, or simply put, in active living. I like to think so much and sometimes I put a disproportional high value to mental abilities. For many years I only thought about things I could do and I should do but I never got out of bed or the door to do anything because I was too much afraid of failure. Now I think, if thinking makes me happy then I will keep thinking, but if it depresses me, then I should stop thinking and do something else. Sometimes it is the very simple things that change the color of my mood.

I also come to understand that there is nothing wrong to be down. Now we talk about my wave theory again. Things always go up and down, like the waves. There's nothing in life that only goes up and stays up, because that would just be boring. The trick is to recognize this, and when down, try to hold on while wait, so we don't fall off (don't kill yourself), and in time things will go up again and we can enjoy the ride. For me, now in my down time, I will try to change my focus and jump onto another wave that is not too low, and then ride that for a while. So lately I have not been too down for too long, although sometimes I do need to take breaks and just lie low. Sometimes jumping to another wave (change focus, start a new project) requires a lot of energy, so I am learning to do those simple things, take baby steps of very simple things, and then I find simple joy in simple living. I know I am repeating a lot of old wisdom and teachings about happiness. Sometimes we just need to turn off our brain and turn on our ears and listen quietly. After all we are all just small people living on a small planet over a tiny period of time in an infinite universe, and there are so much yet to be lived.

One other thing I want to say is, I find it far more rewarding to be wise than to be smart and capable.

Sorry if I sound like I am preaching so much. It's really just a small summary of my recent thoughts on the search of happiness that I want to share with you. More and more I understand the importance of action.