I don't know what to say.... I feel these days I am failing people over and over again. Have I traveled too far from home? Seems some people don't want to believe my growth even though I tell them I am different now. Maybe they are right that in certain ways (i.e. in their ways of seeing people) I haven't changed. But I feel the ways I deal with people and situations have changed because of my changed attitudes. I appear to be very easy going and uncertain, but deep down inside I know what I want. Sometimes it scares people when they find that out.

-- email to JA.